My real and true love story

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Introduction myself.

Slaam o alaikum everybody, how are you ? My name Habibullah from City. Quetta. State. Baluchistan. Pakistan. I like to write my own love story. please help me because I'm a new user and also haven't practice to write a story.Thanks

I seen her my first time.

After 9 days, I came my City and reached my sweet home. My parents seen me, they made hugged me with their's love, they was weeping so much for me. My all relatives came to my house to see me. Actually I left my home with angry and did not informed my parents,That time I was only 12 years old, so therefor my beloved father and mother was weeping very much. My mom told me that her cousin Mr. Badar hussain's marriage made stop by my absence, so now I reached my home, they would make his marriage with in few days. I was very happy to know about Badar hussain's wedding. A day really we were going to make marriage Mr. Badar Hussain, who was my mom's cousin.we were going by train.With in an hour we reached bride's city, the city is a part of the Sindh province, which situated in Pakistan, The City name is Gharhi Khuda bakhsh.

We got off the train, and gone the bride house, by the horse-cart. The female guests gone in the bride house and we all male stayed at the male portion. The days were Summer's Season, I felt very heat, the time was at about 12 noon. My beloved Mom called me by some one boy, the boy said me that I should go to the bride home inside, the advise by my mom order, when my mom seen me ,she made order with her love, that I should take a bath with cool and fresh water which available through land tap. Where is the tap? I asked my mom She pointed me by her hand's finger, my son, look at the house yard, the land tap was there, okay.I took a bath with fresh and cool water by the land tap. I wear my clothes, I asked the comb to my mom, Son, take it the comb, said my mom! I was making the comb in my hair, suddenly I saw with my sight, that a beautiful girl passed to near me, she was very much beautiful, I didn't seen so beautiful girl like her in my whole life, I try to traced her, so I went behind the girl, I saw, she sat on a cot and she was catching the lice to a woman head, I make stood near hers, she was making laugh to the women, she was a laughing girl. I lost my heart in front her. Now She felt my sight's heat, because I were seeing her beautiful face, without my eyelids to blink.I made most try to got her attention, but she didn't response me. Then I made a trick, that how I could communicate to her, so I went to male portion, and took a water cooler to there and I made it empty to the water, My mom's uncle shouted "hey, where are you taking it and why you made dropped the cool water,? What,s happened?" I replied him "I'm going to fill fresh and cool water, and I dropped dirty water because I saw a died fly in it. Okay, okay, hurry up and keep silent, he said me, I laughed, and went her house inside.

I were tracing her, I seen her in few moments, I shouted "hey girl, please fill me the cooler with the cool and fresh water because men asking for water." have you not eyes for look the tap? and why you shouted badly? She made angry.She said to me that she didn't my slave. Okay, Sorry, I didn't want to make angry you, no problem, I fill the cooler with water, myself. I took steps by my feet, She shouted my backside." hey boy stop, stop, give me the cooler, I fill it for you" No, thank a lots, I have my two eyes and also two hands, so please, leave me alone, now I can fill it myself, I replied her with my deep grief. But she don't loser! " Hey boy stop! Are you mad boy? Stupid! How you can go to tap? She further said 'Didn't I see the women they were taking bath without their cloths' Now I felt with clearly, that my calamity to cause will be through she clever girl. As I heard her threat, I made stop my feet! what I could do? except follow her orders! She snatched the cooler from my hands with a winner's smiled. I made wait her that point, wheres she left me,few minutes latter, she came back to me with the cooler, she took it with her two hands, she shouted "hey boy are you blind? I can't take it, the cooler too heavy! come on take it from my hands, the cooler,s weight would break my hands. I made moved forward my hands and I took her both hands, she shouted,"aooch" She asked me with her cry, that What I want to her? who was I? where from I came to her house? did I went to kill her by pain? What did my aim? She couldn't stand the pain so I should leave her hands."O, mad, leave my hands" She cried once more. but I was not conscious,except my Beloved's vision, Suddenly I got my senses, O' no! its something wrong, to my sweetheart. (these all words, I said in my heart).I left her hands. I said her, Sorry girl! by the way let me know your name.Why? She spoke with angry!nothing dear, Just for my knowledge,I replied her nervously,She laughed at me and said her name "Aap e Jaaie" (This is a Sindhi tongue,s word, which mean " she born by herself"

I also laughed at her name,and better understood that she didn't like to expose her name to me, I had request her once more about her name, but she had gone, and she left her smile, for only me.Later I asked someone that who she was? then I came to know that She was bride's younger sister, her real name Nazeera.That day was a Mayan ritual before marriage, We also participated that function, which the story I'm writing now for you the time was 7 00 PM, so therefor we made return to my city by the train.I heard the marriage would be 29th moon night, Zee al Quaad 1402 AD. same like Saturday 18 September 1982.

When We got back home, the Groom asked me "Hey younger bro! hurry up tell me! Which my wife's sister did you like?" Yes elder bro! I liked very much your wife's younger sister which name is Nazeera, I replied embarrassed. He laughed "hey no dear! "She already engaged with her mother's brother's son (cousin)" When I found out it belonged to someone else, I lost my consciousness..... What! I shocked, when I heard the words, because I knew, As the dirty outdated traditions which spread over at my around, as the customs, now I could never gain her, she belonged to someone else.I still remember that day, I very cried on this day on my bad luck. I decided in heart, that I would never meet her again. But what can I do about my heart that is still beyond me for Nazeera! So I made wait to Badar hussain's marriage day with my helplessly.

At last that day had came, that I was going to see once more my beloved. After an hour we all wedding participator reached to bride home. I was looking for my beloved. After few minutes, She got me. She was very busy serving the guests.I came in front of her and said I had came. I said these words so innocently, that everyone laughed. She was a little embarrassed, to see everyone was laughing.To hide her defeat,she said, "O, mad boy! So what I do? ....come and sit, in my bra. I was embarrassed to hear that.! I very sad to heard her harsh attitude. I was innocent, and I crazy in loved with her only. Why did she say that to me in front of everyone? I asked to myself. I was shocked by his harsh behavior, I sat quietly to one side because I didn't like anything. A friend saw me in this condition and asked what happened? My tears flowed when I heard two words of sympathy to my friend's mouth. Seeing this, my friend hugged me and asked what happened? You were more worried about this marriage than the bridegroom! Nothing, please leave me alone for a bit of time,I said to my that friend. But he made stubborn, he said me, "No, I can't leave you alone in this situation, you must tell me that whats happened?" What I could to told my friend about my beloved! Nothing, man, you made start skinning my hair, I false laughter laughed. My friend said me that, okay, it didn't matter, that I didn't like to share my secret to him, no problem, but I should changed my sad mood. He grabbed me, by his hands to stand up me. He told me, that bicycles there had available, as a per hour rents, so let's to rides the bicycles. We picked up the rented bicycles and visited the around city. We rode the Bicycles, these made small in size.we returned to her home in the evening.

I saw, the bride's sisters were applying henna to the bridegroom's hands and feet. Suddenly, the bridegroom sighted at me, and he called me, "hey man, where did you been so far? get you make rid of them me, they robbed me. I saw that One of those who applied henna to the bridegroom's hands, had my the beloved. I made smiled and walked towards them. I asked them that whatever happened, why did they make harassed the groom, what did they people want? My beloved saw me with angry and warned me that it's not my job so, I shouldn't make interfered their worked! She further announced that as we everyone known that they all girls were bride's sisters and he their sister's the groom. so she didn't allowed to let someone to interfered between them. The groom requested me with smiled that if I had some money in my pocket, gave it to those poor people. She spoke immediately that why they beggars, they had asked for their rights to the groom. they all sisters stopped their hands and refused to apply henna to groom's hands and demanded money to groom. Finally I had to asked her, that how much money had they demanded to the groom?She said with laughs... O'Yes, now what a great news for her sisters! At last the camel came down the mountain.She asked her sisters "Now tell me,friends, how much money you wanted from the groom?" Sisters told her! that they wanted at least 500 rupees so they couldn't accepted the money, less than 500 rupees to the groom.(As the Rule in 1982, U S:1 Dollar = 11 rupees in Pakistan's currency)She said to her sisters "yes my dear sisters, why n't, you have absolutely right to got the money from the groom. She asked for her demand to the groom! "Let's take out 500 rupees for us, and please put to my palm, We have a lot more works to down!"The groom asked me if I had one rupee of changed like quarter or half of a rupee, give the money to the bride's sisters. Yes sir! here is it, I immediately took the money out of my pocket and placed it on my beloved's hand. The money which I put on her hand the two coins of 10 paise, and a 5 paise coin. She shook her hand and spoke angrily "Hey boy! What a joke you guys made to us?" She said me that we should make pay full the amount, otherwise they will get up and left, without apply henna to the groom's hands. I don't remember completely, but maybe the groom saved his life by given them a few hundred rupees. They finished their work and gone. The groom had been henna on his hands and feet so therefore he sat on the cot and I sat to him. It had got late and the women and girls were busy preparing to themselves for the evening function, so therefore my beloved also missed to my eyes and I couldn't seen her! The groom's henna had dried up so his hands and feet made washed.We both got up and went to the male's portion. but shortly after, the groom's mother made an ordered me by a boy that I go to female portion where my need for write the names of the women's men. (It should be noted that in 1982, we had very little general education in my area and women had almost no educated).The groom's mother was taking money from the women and she asking me to write the name in the notebook which I was writing something and leaving something because I could not write so fast.I had quickly caught by a woman, she asked me her husband's name, which I couldn't wrote in my notebook to till that time. So the woman shouted, "Hey, this boy is drowning our fleet, so please bring the someone else because he doesn't know how to write" The groom's mother slapped me on the my back and said me that I may get out and she snatched her the pen and the note book to me. I felt free to myself, so I climbed a wall which situated in her house, and I began to looked around for my beloved.The whole house yard had full of women, The crowd of women made it difficult to tell which of them were our women and which of them were others.

In a short time I saw my beloved. Allah Akbar, what was it? I could seen my beloved, she came in front of me in her pink clothes, I could never forget in my whole life that scene which she has a tall nose, her thin waist, her big and also thick eyes and her pink lips, she has her slim body, so she had looked like as the maiden of heaven. I still can't stand the sight of her beauty and I seem to be intoxicated by the fun of her beauty, No doubt I love her to even today than like same first day, She is my beloved and I her slave. I tried very hard to talk to her, but she made ignore me every time. She was very proud of herself. At last the fed up with her arrogance, I went to see a movie with my friends, which movie title name was "Hathh Karee" the movie was black & white. the Panjabi movie made by Iqbal hassan and Yousif khan as a actors.When we returned to her house, the marriage had taken placed and the marriage has been solemnized. We took the meal. I asked her, that she tell me my cot, where I could slept? She told with angry that I should go to sleep on her head. She said me that I were asking her, as such as my cot had in her pocket, She further said me that there has not possible to, that I could get a cot, because I had been seeing to the women and their children's rush. She advised me that I should go to her home's roof, maybe I would find any cot or any place for my sleep. I went to her home's roof through the stairs, I saw many boys were slept to their cots. I too lay on the cot with a boy.It wasn't long before when I slept, I heard lot of noise in ladies voices , so the noise noise opened my eyes, I heard that a scorpion made bitten to the groom's sister in law (She was groom's younger brother's wife).that had been time for the train to arrive at the her city's station. Mom was looking for me, and she was calling me that where I was! "yes mom I'm there on that roof" I Said to my mother. My mother had ordered me, that I should prepare to return home, that was time for the train. My heart did never wanted me to go back home at all. I were crying from her house to the station. I had been making compliments to my mother to till station arrived, that please mom leave me, I promise her that I shall came with the groom and his bride to the next train. My mom beat me and didn't allowed to live in her house. I returned to come back my home by mother forced and against my will.

She came my city in the first time (as per as my knowledge)

My heart gone sad all the time, I felt very sick to myself, I every-time felt, like I had lost something precious. My mind didn't think to something, except on her thought. I remember those days that even when I called someone else, her name would came out of my mouth. That's reasoned everyone had knew that I loved her.I didn't knew, why those all matters had been happening to me after I seen Nazeeran. Friends tried hard to convince me but didn't fruit-able to me and I had fully mad behind her love, so this reason I missed my education in the sixth grade. I used to listen to Sindhi, Urdu, Panjabi, and Baloch singers all the time. Annoyed, My parents also had tried hard to convinced me for my best future but what could I do to my this mad heart, who did not understand anything but only and only my beloved Nazeeran. My parents had exhausted, so therefore they had left me alone.

It must have been barely fifteen days since, Badr Hussain made married. It will be around 9 o'clock at night when I was sitting on a chair in the courtyard outside the rooftop room of my house. Sindhi Singer Jalal Chandio's the song was playing on the tape recorder "Mehboob Pe Sukaayaa aj War Pyaara, Pyaara, Maan Pe Kya Dari Maa Deedar Pyaara Pyaara" My a friend which name was Ali Gohar, he came up to me and told me that the person which I had been always worried for, she has been came to Badr Hussain's house by the train. "let's walk and seen with your own eyes". True! Happily I screamed and ran as fast as I could, I remember for the first time in my life I went down the stairs as fast as I would have never done before, I had no fear of falling. On the way, many people asked me that why we were running so fast? I was saying to everyone just that, yes, yes, it didn't matter! we ran just like a race. In a few moments I had in front of her and she was in front of me. Her whole family came with her, except for my beloved I shook hands with everyone else. I did not shake hands with my beloved because according to our customs, if a man puts his hand on the head of a woman (girl), she will become his mother or sister. That is why I didn't shake her hand. But the thing was that I was just looking at her and my eyes never tired to watched her beautiful face.

Finally made dared, extended my right hand to her side, by saying her, "Hey, have you came too? sorry, I haven't seen you." So my beloved made fun of me in front of everyone. Look at this boy's acting, She told everyone with laughed that ever since I came, I had only been looking at her and I saying that I have not seen that she has came too, what a great I lied. They came at the wedding invitation of Abdul Khaliq, whose bride was from a City Jacob abad in Sindh Pakistan.

I remember very well that I had made a plan to go to my beloved's home that I wouldn't go to Jacob abad for Abdul Khaliq's wedding, but when my parents left for the wedding, I could go to my beloved's house by secretly.The reason was that I had clearly told my mother that I wouldn't go to Abdul Khaliq's wedding. That was my last decision. But alas, my bad luck, for whom I was going to miss the wedding! now they were going to the wedding.

I started begging my mother for allowed me, my good and lovely mother please allow me to go to the wedding, now I also wanted to go to the wedding, my mother smiled, and said me that I was mad boy, because as I better knew that my father was a servant, how he could go to the wedding? And as I knew about my mother that she had been pregnant from last 10th months, so she also couldn't traveled. my mother ordered me that I had to go the wedding.

I hurriedly took a shower, and got change my clothes, and I went out.

The bus carrying the guests had come to a stop in front of the groom's house. I went to Badr Hussain's house exhausted. I saw that my beloved was sitting on the cot without any worries. I couldn't called her directly, so I did referred to her, but apparently I asked her elder sister, who she had been became the wife of Badr Hussain, I told her to hurry up, sister-in-law, Finally tell me that when would they be ready, for go to the Jacob abad?

(As if she understood very well that I hadn't talked to my sister-in-law but to her.) Instead of my sister-in-law said something to me about my asked, she immediately said me that whoever wanted to go the wedding, they could go. she wouldn't go the wedding. As soon as I heard her words, I wondered how I would do it now, if my beloved wouldn't go, then why I would go to there, without my beloved? I taught in my mind. then I couldn't even said my mom again and again, that I won't go to the wedding, I got upset and sat on the top of the bus. and tears of helplessness flowed from my eyes.

Please note: In my up past story so far, you guys must have understood that how innocent I was and she how much great cunning girl, that she had been made dance me to her fingers. If she didn't go to the wedding. Then why did she came Badar hussain's house from her city! I couldn't understood that time. That's why I went to the top of the bus in frustration.

A friend of mine had tried so hard to convince me, that I didn't to go crazy. He said to me that the time to happy, so I should stop my crying and laugh. Why I made so upsetting to myself for a girl!

For the first time in our lives, we traveled by bus from my hometown to the Jacob abad.

I bowed my head in frustration, I made ignored my friend's words, that my friend suddenly screamed! "Hey, Habib! look there! Your beloved has came! "O my dear friend, rejoice the time!" As soon as my eyes fell on my beloved, I forgot all my griefs and quickly got off the top of the bus and got inside the bus behind my beloved, I seen my beloved sit on the seat. the women and children were allowed to sit inside the bus, the rest of the all men had to sit on the top of the bus. I hadn't my seat to sit, so therefore I would stood behind seat of my beloved. I saw a girl also stood to my near. She was a stranger girl, I asked her name as a conversation. She told me that she was Nzeerah's younger sister and her name was Waahidah. I was very happy to knew that the girl, my beloved's little sister. I made started my conversation to the her sister, because I had clearly felt that my beloved well aware and she made fully focused to my all conversation. Then a long series of conversations had started between the two of us siblings, the journey had also going on, then little by little my beloved had also joined our conversation indirectly, but still she didn't talk to me directly. Whatever Nzeerah had to asked to me, she would asked me, by her little sister, for example! Nzeerah wanted to asked Habib, then Nzeerah told her younger sister. "My dear younger sister please asked to Habib that he knew Balochi language?" Waahida would said me that her elder sister was asking me if I knew Balochi language?" then I would said to Waahidah, That she should tell Nzeerah that yes I can speak Balochi. It had clear that we were both listening to each other's, but still don't knew why we were both talking through her younger sister. Nazira told me through her younger sister that she wanted to compete with me in Balochi language, so would I like to compete with her in speaking Balochi language?

Perhaps, Nazira didn't knew that my mother tongue is Balochi. But I did not even tell her that my mother tongue is Balochi. Because what better opportunity to talk with her closely! I immediately agreed to the contest. That the stage of speaking Balochi language and answering thoughtfully had started, our bus was moving on its own journey, women were singing wedding song to the tune of her Drum, everyone had happy in their own song, we were three person. I was more happy, because I got her company. My heart wanted us to continue our journey in the same bus all our lives, just let no one can separate me to my beloved except my death!

I wish the time would be had stayed there forever, that the time had came that she was making closely relations with me. I had well aware that my beloved had also felt to my true love. then she made felt me her love. the all distances were disappearing. That the time I had felt to myself in heaven, and had made her my maiden of heaven. The Balochi language contest between the two of us went on for a long moments, In the end, it had she who won. She had to win the contest, because she was my beloved, how could I win to the my beloved, A lover could better knew by his heart, the victory of a beloved is the victory of a lover. so I gave a wrong answer to one of her questions, she question had that "Roghan" is a Balochi word! what its did mean in the Sindhi or Urdu translation? I gave her the wrong answer, I told her "word curry" is spoken in sindhi. and Urdu. Then she hadn't took support to the her younger sister to talk me, but now she was talking to me directly face to face, then we had both quite nearest to each other.

I didn't knew that why traveling on buses or any other transports those days was made my head dizzied and I had started vomiting the whole traveled. My health had been got very bad in the travel, and if I didn't got rest for some time, then maybe I would lost my mind. I made tried to controled my those situations enough, but finally got tired, and lay down on a sack of maybe the rice or the flour near Nzirah's seat.

I didn't knew, what happened after that. I just remember that someone woke me up and and said me for go to got off the bus, because the bride's house had reached. I don't remember when and how I got there in the room, I lay on a cot where I got asleep.

Since that day I convinced that not only I her, but she too loves me.

I didn't knew that how much long time I did asleep. after I opened my eyes, I felt very well. I took made obsessed to my beloved once again, and I started looking for my beloved liked a crazy man.

I saw her with her whole family members to the room. They were very happy to saw me. They all started asking me about my health condition! They also asked me that where I made lost, because they searched me all over the women's portion. but they didn't made find me to there, so I told them all about my health, that I was fine. Where I was? I don't even knew myself that where I was! Everyone laughed at the my innocence.

Badr Hussain's a sister asked me about my lunch! I told her to bring a lunch for me. Then she said me, "Okay, my younger brother, just I come, please you wait only few minutes."

I was hungry. So after a while she brought food for me. The lunch made by beef, rice, red chili, and curry mutton. I started eating and at the same time invited everyone to eat.

Badr Hussain's sister started laughing, these days I was ashamed to eat in front of everyone, so I thought maybe she laughed at my eat. I asked her that why she was laughing? So she laughed and told me, That when I invited everyone to my lunch! Then someone replied me, that whoever wanted to share food with us, he should himself bring it to us. she said that she was laughing at the fact, that I sit quietly and alone I was eating my own food.

Sorry sister! I didn't listen to someone, please tell me, whos said that I should share my lunch with her? I asked the Badr Hussain's sister! She told me that my beloved wanted to eat my lunch with me.

There had no limit for my happiness when I heard this. I immediately picked up all the plates of food and crossing the few cots, I went straight in front of her the cot, then I placed all the plates of food front of her. I felt in my heart that day she was very happy. It was the first time that my beloved, her younger sister and me were eating from the same plate together. She was making small pieces of meat for me with her hands and placing them in the plate in front of me. I asked her that why she kept the food only for me? Then she told me, that she didn't wanted to eat something, she used the trick only for get my company, so she made as an excuse to eat with me. She took another step with her true love, that she had started to put the meat pieces in my mouth with her hands.

My beloved Allah was so kind to us that day, My beloved Allah was showering mercy at us. that there was no limit His blessings. May the blessings of my Allah be upon us so very much that I began to feel myself in the Gardens of Paradise and His Heaven.

Her younger sister had became our keeper to our all secrets.

The three of us ate the lunch, and we shared our memories of the past, the three of us were planning for that the coming night, that the three of us would try to get two cots, one of which I would sleep on alone, and the on other cot two of them the sisters could sleep, and all will wake up and tell each other good stories.

The evening was about to begin, the wedding ceremonies were about to begin, the women, the girls and the children were all engaged in their own preparations, some went to take a bath and some went to change their clothes.

Badr Hussain had also reached there with his wife by evening train. He gave me some money and had sent me to fetch a packet of the Marvin cigarettes. Badr Hussain had gave me a bicycle which he made get to someone so that I could go on it and bring cigarettes for him.The bride lived in a village namely Jamali wah, which the village some distance from the Jacob abad city. Waahidah was stubborn to go to on the bicycle with me , she was my beloved's sister so it was not possible for me to stop her, so I made sat her on the bicycle on the front side, The city was wide and an unknown town, we both long enough rode the bicycle. for a while we had afraid that we would been of getting lost. We both bought the Fenta white Toffees for my beloved. Some time later we came back with cigarettes. At that night the three of us had ate in one plate together.

I realized that my association with the Naziran was not tolerated to Badr Hussain, so he opened his mouth shortly afterwards, and objected to my presence there, saying that how could I stayed to the ladies portion, by my Stayed there, could be a nuisance for ladies. so he wanted to got me out of there. He wanted made to got out me of the ladies section so he ordered me that I should go to sleep in the men's section. I had very politely asked Badr Hussain that if women could object to my presence there, then why shouldn't they object to your staying there? When you were so much older than me! I was only 12 years old that time. The truth is bitter, so he raised his hand against me, when he heard me say this bitter truth and I was called bad boy. He gave me reason to he stayed there that he had just married,so he could sleep there with his wife. and he further explained about himself, that no one a woman there, who put objected to badar hussain's stay there. I never forget that night to till now that my heart was weeping and I cried a lot over that blind law. Nazeera's mother also explained about me to Badr Hussain that Habib is still a minor child, what happened? If he sleep there, no one who put object. Even though I was a child that time, I understood very well that no one there who had object to me, except Badar hussain.I was crying uncontrollably over my helplessness. I was all alone. My parents had sent me alone to that wedding ceremony. my father was a laborer and my mom also pregnant from last 10th months. There was no one to help me except my beloved Allah.

I remember when my beloved saw me crying and she grabbed me by the arm and told me to stop my weeping and I shouldn't cry so much, no problem, Badar hussain was our elder brother, and she offered me that I could sleep on her cot, and she would got sleep with her mother.

The mentioned above all facts and grounds it is clear that incident time, Nazirah had an innocent age, because she didn't realize that Badr Hussain had quarreled with me for the sake of Nazeera, so why had she offering me her cot. As if at that time she didn't have any sense that my quarrel with Badr Hussain had taken place over her self.

I pushed my beloved with great force and I also uttered some abusive words, may Allah forgive me. By Allah, I don't remember exactly, but I remember so much that I shouted and said to her, "Go away for God sake, leave me alone for some time." I had lots of trouble by her love, because if I wouldn't made love her, then I wouldn't be in that situation the night, she was only one the responsible for my whole bad situation, Saying those words, I was weeping loudly and got out to the house and sat in the street.

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(Noted) It was worth noting for me that, few years later to that incident, when I crossed my childhood age I had shocked by the fact, at that time I had my younger age, what harm could I do to anyone! I was only 12 years child, that Badar Hussain had so jealous to me, then he couldn't bear my and Nazeerah's true love, but why? he couldn't bear!

My Allah better knows than me about Badar hussain's intentions.

But I still didn't knew, that why such questions arose in my mind.

(1) Did Badar hussain also made affections to my girlfriend!

(2) Did Badr Hussain made hate me personally.

(3) Did Badr Hussain considered me as a lousy, filthy and very bad boy?

(2) Maybe Badar hussain wanted to keep us away to those acts by thinking that we were just young children, we should took only my study to that time.

I mentioned in the beginning of the story that when I came to my house, from my beloved's house, Badr Hussain asked me that which his wife's sister I liked for my life partner! Then I told Badr Hussain about Nazira that I liked Nazira the most. I didn't knew what intention Badar Hassain for asked.

Today Badr Hussain is no more with us because he had been passed away since 7th March 2013. Badar hussain made two marriages in his life.

Badr Hussain's first wife was my youngest real aunt who gave birth to 2 sons of Badr Hussain. She died on August 14, 1981, and his the second wife was elder sister of my girlfriend. Badar hussain's sacond wafe gave birth to 5 sons and 7 daughters. She died on 2017.

I do not consider it appropriate to write against about someone except more than what I have written with a good intention, A brief introduction about late Badar hussain's personality, because my purpose is only to write my true story and not to gossip about someone.

My heartfelt prayer is that Allah, the Exalted, grant the souls of Badr Hassan and his two wives a place in Paradise. Amen

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My chest was bursting with pain. At that time, I made my all complaints only to my Allah, that why He created to me to gave such pains, and why He gave me love to the girl, who could never be mine.

I hadn't yet expressed my love to her . That the mountains of suffering had on me begun to fall. I don't knew what will happened to me in to my future. May Allah bless me, I wasn't knowing that how many troubles would be sitting in my niche.

I was crying while talking to myself, that I swore many times that night, that I would never speak to her for my whole life, nor would I ever look at her. My repentance from making love, of course my father's too repentance.

That night my Lord Allah heard my complaints, which I submitted in only His Court, then suddenly a Miracle happened.

Believe it or not, but according to my memory, it was true that the sky weep too when I was crying that night because there were no signs of the rain before that. Suddenly there had begone the heavy rain with flash lightning and also thundering. I don't remember that how much long I able to withstand the heavy rain. There had completely dark everywhere, the whole area was without electricity. I came running towards the houses, I entered a nearest a house without my knowledge, I mean I didn't knew that whose house was that! I went inside a room through the courtyard of the house. When I got there, I realized that there were many people in this room besides me. It was completely dark in that room, there was a cot in my legs, I soon grabbed a corner of the cot and sat down immediately. The rain outside was still heavy. My clothes were all soaked, so I was feeling a little cold. I guessed about the room, I soon realized that besides me, Badr Hussain and Nazeerah's family were also in that room. I so happy to knew that my beloved would be somewhere in the same room. But when I remembered Badr Hussain's misbehavior, then I thought of leaving that room, because at about an hour ago Badr Hussain fought me over that I should stay away from my beloved and her all family members. At that time they were unaware of my presence because of the darkness, but how long will I hide myself from his. The rain would be stop, then the electricity also would be came, So that's how he would start fighting to me when he would seen me in the room. That is why I was thinking whether to leave the room or not!

My heart was not letting me out of that room because of the love of my beloved, while my mind was urging me to leave the room in view of the previous dangerous situation. Before I could got out to that room, I suddenly thought that there had a female, because I felt that her body was touching to my left side's body and her ladies cloths were rumbling voice, then I just thought, that who she could be. At the same time I had surprised by listened her voice, the one who was sitting on the same cot with me was none other than my own girlfriend. We had been sitting together on the same cot for a sometime but had oblivious to each other because of the darkness in that room. I recognized her by her sound, that time when she spoken to someone. I was making thankful to my beloved Great Allah, Who is most merciful, because the less I thanked my Allah for that beautiful coincidence, the less. Believe me, by Allah, it was no less than a miracle for me from my Great Allah that I was sitting on the same cot with my beloved. I had forgotten all my promised and my swears which I made to oneself before rain, that I would never meet to my beloved. Thinking that when my Most merciful Allah Didn't Wanted me to kept her away from me, then how could I have kept away from her! because we both came to the same the cot together in a dark room, it could not be just a coincidence but there must have been some expediency from my Allah.

Hurrah, Thanks my beloved Great God that She Accepted my love request with her heart.

As my thought that I recognized her that time, while she had unaware of my presence there. I put my head on my beloved's shoulder, so she got up from the cot in panic. May be she didn't knew that I was also in the room, because it was a miracle that we were so close sat together, in the dark room. I was about to run away from the room with in fear because it was my first that act against her. I had no idea how she would react to my that act. may be she made a noise, that someone teased her. Before I could got up, and run out away from the room, she sat down quietly on the same cot with close me. Believe me, that how much I got happy moments at that time, I am still thirsting, for just only a moment like that. When Nazira sat close to me, I was overjoyed that my beloved had recognized me, and that she had accepted my that act with all her heart, because if she didn't like my that action, she would never sat quietly near me again, but would make a noise or at least go somewhere far away, but she didn't do anything like that. O yes, thank you my God.

She sat down with made close me, I had repeated that same process, but the second time with full confidence that my beloved would also give me complete love that time. As soon as she felt the weight of my head once again, She made Shocked her shoulders the second time too, but the second time she didn't nervous, and she didn't left her the place. I hadn't fear either, but I still lifted my head from her shaking shoulder once more.

I had continued my process for third time and that time I put my whole head on her left shoulder with great satisfaction. She whispered to me with my name "Habib?" I whispered in the same like her volume to her, Yes my lord-lady, I been only your slave till my last day. She smiled with feminine manner proud, and continued her whisper and she kept asking me that why I didn't stop, when she told me to stay beside her! She further asked why I did push her! She also said that when I pushed her, she gone hit the cot by my pushed which injured her elbow. She told me in her feminine proud manner that she was very angry to me, why I came to her that time while she hadn't need me, for that time. On which I also continued the series of my talk and tried unsuccessfully to cover up my mistakes and asked him that I pushed you? Where my lord-lady? how I could to made insult to my lord-lady! I said to her: O my highness lady! Even then, I sat in front of her, to which she smiled and said, "Hey,lie boy, how you made a big lie! At that time, you didn't came for me yourself, My Allah sent you by rain for me. I agreed with her that what she was saying, was absolutely true, that it was my God, who sent that rain to unite the two of us there, otherwise how could I knew which the house, which the room in sat my beloved, and how I could find the cot where my beloved had sat in the complete dark room!

Of course, that was no doubt that those all Blessings upon us by our most merciful Allah , sub,haa na,hoo,wa,taala

She smiled at my excused and said that I was a naughty boy, who refused to admit his all sins. I apologized to her for all my mistakes, on which she took my right hand in her left hand then put it on her left thigh. We sat in the same condition for a long time, talking about love and affection, and we held to each other's hand in such a way, that my right hand was on top of her left hand, And the fingers of both our hands were inserted into the fingers of each other's hand.

We had both so lost in each other's affections for that time that I felt as if I had no consciousness, as if I had reached the destination that day after a long distance of centuries. I wish that, the time would been stay there forever. She continued slowly whispers with her sweet voice like something a honey song was going in my ears.

I didn't knew how much long time later, it will be, that a boy namely Ali Gohar who was my classmate came into the room. As soon as he arrived, he put the lighter on and made lit the room. It all happened so suddenly that we both couldn't separated to each others.

They did see us in that state or not but Ali Gohar had seen us in that state, so therefore he immediately extinguished the illuminated match, the people sitting in the room, shouted, "Why did you put off the light?" they were asking to Ali Gohar. Ali Gohar made an excuse that his hand burnt. Badr Hussain thanked Ali Gohar and said that he did well to came the room, because he had run out of matches and he had been needing for cigarettes for a long time. Anyway, my beloved a most brilliant mind girl to till date, so she also sat far away from me with in a moment. She took the lighter from Ali Gohar and made a lamp with mustard oil to light the room. After a while the rain had stopped completely and the electricity had also came. The women, including my girlfriend, They made the dance on the drum, beating wooden sticks in their hands.She was looking very beautiful while putting on the dance. My heart were falling in my love at her for that time, my heart wanted to hug her. She during the danced was smiling to me as if she were asking me to her eyes that how her danced was looking to me. Hiding from the public eyes, I made my eye blinked at her and waved my hand her, thatch mean she was very good looks.

After a while the ceremony of uniting the bride and her groom began and then people slowly went for preparing to their sleep, and wherever they could find a place for their sleep,they would slept. She slept to her mother. I found a place for my sleep so I slept on a pile of the clothes in the same room. Everyone was in a hurry to return when I opened my eyes in the morning. The bus had also arrived, this time Badr Hassian forbade me to get inside the bus so I went on top of the bus where sat with all the boys and after some time we reached my home town.

Greet to my beloved and I greet her great love.

I proud of her love, she loved just only me. We returned to our home from Jacob abad.

At about 8 o'clock that night. Naziran called all the boys to play a game. (Probably she didn't know about my absence because when she couldn't seen me to the place, she immediately called her younger sister Waahedah and asked her, where I was! One of the boys told her that I came to my house to sleep, she was very sad to knew that the news, but soon she told her the younger sister Waahidah to woke me up from my house and She also made informed me that Nazeeran was calling me for a game with her. Badar hussain's younger brother namely Sehat khan who was against my true love. He advised to Nazeeran that they hadn't need Habib for the game because they had large in numbers so they should leave me to slept, the all boys made a request to Nazeeran that she could start the game without me.

But my beloved also had stubborn. She made it clear to Badr Hussain's younger brother Sehat khan that if Habib didn't play the game, then she wouldn't play either. Hearing this, Sehat khan became furious and he made a call to the all boys for play the game without Nazeeran's participation, but there no one the boy who agreed with him. Sehat khan felt ashamed. I wasn't there the time, but all these things were told to me by Waahedah.

My Beloved Father

She came my house first time in her life.

Next day was the Thursday, She came my house in the first time in her life. She met my family members which one my beloved father, two younger sisters, and two my mothers, they gave her very much loved with some gifts. She made very happy the day to came my house with her family, but very sad that I didn't in my house that the time. She liked my house very much, She seen my a black and white Photo which she tried to stole it but she couldn't reached her hands to the photo because the Photo hung on the wall in a room. She got my permission to my parents With the help of her parents. That she could took me her home by the evening train. These all situations She told me herself when she met me for next day on the train. Next day was the Thursday, She came my house in the first time in her life. She met my family members which one my beloved father, two younger sisters, and two my mothers, they gave her very much loved with some gifts. She made very happy the day to came my house with her family, but very sad that I didn't in my house that the time. She liked my house very much, She seen my a black and white Photo which she tried to stole it but she couldn't reached her hands to the photo because the Photo hung on the wall in a room. She got my permission to my parents With the help of her parents. That she could took me her home by the evening train. These all situations She told me herself when she met me for next day on the train. I had gone her city on the Friday with Mr. Kaawar Khan, I made an excuse to watch Kabaddi Kabaddi. (The Person Mr. Kaawar Khan who is the younger brother of late Badr Hussain). I toured around her city, but I couldn't enjoyed her city without her presence. Because she didn't there that the time. In fact,when Badr Hussain found out that I was going with Naziran under the pretext of Kabaddi Kabaddi, he stopped Naziran and her family on the pretext of his dinner. So I had to go without Naziran. I went her house there. I came surprised to see that when I first the time came to her house, the house was full of the people. I couldn't found a place to sleep, but that day seemed the same house had deserted. Naziran's elder brother Bhoral had a fever. Bhoral used to lied down on the cot alone in the whole house. We reached to the Garhi khuda bakhsh Station. We wanted to go to back my city by the train, so therefore We reached the railway station Garhi Khuda Bakhsh on it's time, the train also arrived shortly after us, we just board, then the train started moving towards its destination. After traveling in the train for about half an hour, our train entered the Station area of Usta Mohammad.

In 1982 the time table of the Up and down trains from the Station Usta Muhammad.The trains which came from Jacob abad to went Larkana and came from Larkana to went Jacob abad used to be something like this. There were two trains which runs daily three times a day.The first Up train Daily early morning at about 4:00 came from Jacob abad.The first Down train Daily early morning at about 7:00 came from Larkanh. The second Up train Daily noon at about 11:00 came from Jacob abad. The second Down train Daily afternoon at about 2:30 came from Larkanh. The third Up train Daily evening at about 8:00 came from Jacob abad. The third Down train Daily evening at about 8:00 came from Larkanh.